مردهای زندگی من تو زرد از اب در اومدن!!د

 

It’s been only three months, yet it feels like a lifetime—like you were never really part of my world.

What surprises me most is how little I’ve missed you, especially compared to last year. 

There’s been no overwhelming pain, no heavy sadness.

It’s been easier than I imagined, and far less difficult than I expected.

I’ve been absorbed in my own life—wrapped up in material distractions, health challenges, 

and the day-to-day struggles of living. 

In focusing on myself, I realized that time has softened the edges of the past. 

My life feels fuller, though in a different way. 

It’s strange how life goes on, even when a chapter ends.

 

Finally, it is over, 

This time for good!. 

Thanks to You for giving me all the reasons, so I could finally letting go of this whatever it was but LOVE!

I NEVER thought I might experience this much pain and regret with you!

and obviously, I NEVER knew you well enough to find out you didn't deserve it AT ALL!

THANK YOU for cutting all the bondings tonight!

Just get out of my heart and GO TO HELL! 

I don't need your love, caring and respect! 

YES, I am angry and disappointed as you gave me all the reasons to HATE YOU MOVING FORWARD coward!

Unknown!

P.S. Hey Beautiful, Next time you miss him or some of your memories about this relationship, come here and read this post and remind yourself what you have gone through tonight and all the reasons got you here!!!!!

  

 

Desire

Chicago

Reality

 

On that day, 

I promised myself, 

I live a life I deserve! 

I promise myself in 2024, 

I will be closer to the one I want to be 

and the one I want to be with,

 

Keep reminding myself 

just take small steps honey... 

Stay focus

Don't give up

and Don't let the emotional turbulence of others

 take away YOU 💚

 

سرنوشت را باید از سر نوشت

شاید این بار کمی بهتر نوشت 

عاشقی را غرق در باور نوشت 

غصه ها را قصه ای دیگر نوشت

Not  trying to remember this day, cos it has been one of the worse days of my life. 

I am writing to remind  myself that everything is temporary even a sad day will not last forever. 

But don't let the foot print of  it in your memory scares you or make you sad. 

It should make you proud of yourself that despite all these difficult times in your life, you keep going. 

 

 I missed you Daddy, missed you soooo much...

 

خیلی بهم ریخته و قاطی ام از دیروز 

البته می دونم چرا

یکم زمان لازم دارم

همش می خوام قوی باشم و هی به خودم می گم تو نیاز به اون و این نداری  

گاهی اما  از قوی بودن خسته می شم و 

دلم یه اغوش بی دغدغه می خواد 

...

 

Happy Birthday ...

 

Every time I see pictures like this, it reminds me of the pure joy and peace we used to have, while  spending time together in places like this ... like Carla's house... 

 Woodwick Candle, 

Flowers, 

Coffee, 

Morning meditation music

Good morning Universe, let's have an amazing day...

دلم یکم گرفته

خسته کارهم هستم.

 ناراحت هم هستم . بیشتر از همه از دست خودم 

!  نمی دونم چرا اما زود جوش میارم 

 ...دست خودم نیست 

بگذریم 

دلم تنگه 

دیگه خیلی هم نمی دونم واسه چی تنگه

از بس که سعی می کنم روی ذهنم  و فکرهام مسلط باشم 

 وبرگردم به روتین خودم و مثبت باشم و خلاصه حالم خوب باشه  

دیگه احساساتم غرو قاطیه 

!نمی دونم چی می خوام یا چی باید بخوام 

دلم دو کلمه حرف حساب می خواد

که دلم بلکه بکم باز شه

...

دنبال وبلاگ "دیوونه"  بودم 

قدیما خیلی می خوندمش و نوشته ها شو دوست داشتم

باید بگردم پیداش کنم

خسته ام از این احساس غمی که هی هر از گاهی از ته اعماق وجودم  میاد بالا و خودنمایی می کنه و من هی سعی می کنم بهش رو ندم و پسش می زنم 

....

دلم حال خوب می خواد

 دلم حس خوشحالی می خواد اون ته ته دلم

این بار چقدر طول می کشه که زخم ها التیام پیدا کنن؟ 

 زندگی گاها چه بی معنا بیچیده می شه 

هر چقدر هم حواست باشه باز می بینی چه الکی از لای انگشتات گریز می کنه 

این روزا  و این ادمها رو نمی فهمم

 چرا خوشحالی و لبخند رو از خودمون و همدیگه دریغ می کنیم

Hello universe ...

It's my birthday again! 😊 Those who know me well enough know that my birthday is an important day for me. It's not just because I was born, but because I consider it "my day" out of the entire year. I usually pause and take a break from daily life, reflect on my life, and appreciate all that I have accomplished, as well as the people in my life who love and care for me.

I feel fortunate for all of these, and I celebrate my day by doing something fun because I believe I deserve it. 

let’s cherish life in the midst of its highs and lows, not letting it to slip  away  in the chaos of our daily lives, we only live once...

Cheers🥂🌹

 

I just wanna ask you the one last question...

"So, ... are you happy now, and feel relieved?!"

 

 

Peace,

Joy,

Gentleness,

Wisdom,

Patience, 

Kindness,

 loved ones... (Real ones!)

&

Letting go...

~ My Life these days 

!دلم بغل می خواد 

  یه وقتهایی  مثل الان  یهویی دلم یه جوری  تنگ می شه که انگار نه انگار که ...د

 دلم بغلت رو می خواد

خیلی

 مثل اون روز صبح

...

 پاورقی:  ...کی همه این مموری ها پاک می شن؟ 

 

Real freedom comes from acceptance. Only when you embrace pain, sorrow and confusion as part of the human experience, can you find ease and peace inside....

So, believe in yourself  Beautiful...

 

Happy Norouz to you too.

 

 

انگاری هر کار که می کنی یه جوری زندگی از لای انگشتهات می خواد بلغزه بره 

اصلا هم به راحتی و سادگیی که هی می گن "جوی فول" باش و زندگی رو سخت نگیر نیست 

.تو هم بخوای سخت نگیری وارامش داشته باشی زندگی بهت سخت می گیره

 

I just read my last post below ... wow, so many things have happened since then and I feel I live in another planet now...

All I know, I was wrong... yeah I confess.  And I am back to square one when I told myself long long time ago that no-one is an exception... 

I was wrong about many things..., but I do not regret my experiences, cos without them, I couldn't imagine who or where I would be today, although it was hard, really hard...

c'est la vie...

  

 

Hey you, Thank you for being gentle and respectful to me all the time ...

 بهت قول می دم یه روزی دلت برام خیلی تنگ می شه 

برای قرارهای جمعه ها مون 

  برای عکسهای شبای شنبه 

برای خونه کارلا

 ...حتی برای غر زدن های من 

Gone with the wind...

 Good morning Beautiful ...

missed you so much ...

I was in love with you olagh...

 

14 years passed, here we are again! 

love, passion, sensual, and memories of LIFE that goes on ..........

Where we are in 5 years, same day at 11 AM!?