November 24, 2025

 


Sometimes memories rise up without warning.

A scene in a movie… a familiar silence… a moment where a woman speaks, but her voice isn’t heard. And suddenly I’m taken back to the times when I lived inside that silence myself—when I wasn’t listened to, when the blame fell on me without a word spoken, when my feelings were invisible.

 Those memories used to hurt.

Now they teach me.

They remind me why choosing separation was an act of self-respect, not loss. A moment of reclaiming my voice after years of being silenced. A step toward a life where I no longer have to shrink myself to keep the peace, or carry the weight of someone else’s unhappiness.

Today, when those old memories surface, I no longer feel trapped.

I feel grateful.

Grateful that I walked away from a place where I wasn’t heard.

Grateful that I no longer have to tolerate the coldness of being blamed for things that were never mine to carry.

Grateful that I am building a life where my feelings matter, where my voice is allowed to exist, where calm is no longer something I have to fight for.

This separation wasn’t the end of something good.

It was the beginning of something kinder.

 

A beginning where I finally choose myself


November 05, 2025

 



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