Me and my new chapter ...

Hard Days Will Come, But I Will NOT Lose Myself

 

Hard days will come—that is certain. Change brings pain, uncertainty, and moments of doubt. But no matter how difficult the road ahead, I will NOT lose myself.

I will NOT drown in sadness or fear. I will not let heartbreak define me. I will allow myself to feel, to grieve, but I will also remind myself: I am still here. I am still standing. I am still capable of healing and rebuilding.

Grief may visit, but it will not consume me.
Fear may whisper, but it will not control me.
Memories may flood in uninvited, but I will not live in the past.

I am more than who I was before. I am becoming stronger, wiser, and braver. A brighter future awaits me, and I will step into it—one day at a time.

Every hard day will pass. Old, bitter memories will fade, making space for new, beautiful ones. Peace will come. Healing will come. And soon, I will no longer measure my worth through someone else’s eyes.

This is NOT the end. This is just a transition. And beyond this pain, there is peace, hope, and a future waiting for me.

I will hold on to that.
I will keep moving forward.

 

I had a lovely evening with two dear friends last night

opening up about my vulnerability and pain, 

and feeling deeply grateful for their empathy, love, and support. 

I look forward to the day, hopefully not too far from now, when I can raise a glass and share my happiness with them instead...

 

The past is behind me,  

the pain, 

the mistakes,

the unanswered questions, 

I have carried them long enough, but now

I choose to set them down.

Today, I close this chapter, not with regret, but with gratitude for the lessons that shaped me.

i am not looking back.

I am stepping forward - towards the life I have always deserved...

A fresh start , a new beginning, 

and a future that truly is mine.

Here is to strength, to growth, and to finally choosing myself. 

    

 

A Family Day to Remember

Today is Family Day, what a coincidence!!

After weeks of deep reflection, this morning, I finally made a life-changing decision — 

a turning point for the sake of my emotional and mental well-being. 

After 25 years ... !!

         It wasn’t easy at all, but I know it’s the right step forward.

This Family Day will be one I’ll NEVER forget.

But more than anything, I hope that one day, I’ll have a family with whom I can truly cherish the meaning and beauty of togetherness.

...

 

The past couple of days have been unbearably painful and heartbreaking.
It feels like I was suddenly pushed off a cliff. I had sensed some signs that things weren’t quite right lately, but never to this extent. The pain is far deeper than I ever imagined - especially when it blindsides you.
After going this far, at this stage in life… it’s hard to process.

I wish I could go into hibernation for a whole year - just sleep through the storm and wake up when the dust has settled, when I’ve made it through the hardest chapter of my life, and when this unexpected trauma is finally behind me...

 

Where I am gonna be in my life next year at this moment ...

How I am gonna feel ...